{"id":6488,"date":"2020-07-24T18:28:41","date_gmt":"2020-07-24T21:28:41","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/site.claricelispector.ims.com.br\/acervo\/067417-2\/"},"modified":"2020-12-02T15:28:57","modified_gmt":"2020-12-02T18:28:57","slug":"067417-2","status":"publish","type":"acervo","link":"https:\/\/site.claricelispector.ims.com.br\/en\/archive\/letters\/067417-2\/","title":{"rendered":"067417"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

Bern, October 22, 1947<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

My dear,

The typewriter is being repaired, I have to write carefully by hand, which I hate. Darling, little flower, are you well then? Healthy? Are you undergoing any treatment?

And Elisa, with the public job application? \u2013 I was glad to know that Marcinha wants to study until she manages the minuet… And speaking of music, we have a record player! Maury\u2019s uncle, when he came by, offered us as a wedding present a pretty clock. But we thought we\u2019d prefer a record player \u2013 and bought it. It may not be pretty, but it\u2019s good.

There have been luncheons, etc. Today there will be a kind of reception at the Embassy, where Fel\u00edcia Blumental will play Brazilian composers. Maury is well. He\u2019s put on a lot of weight lately, he works a lot, he is in general content. He really enjoyed the trip to Spain, and didn\u2019t even get tired of driving so much. He is good and doing well. \u2013 Rosa\u2019s still an angel. Today she said she wouldn\u2019t want to be \u201cin the shoes\u201d of a certain neighbor of ours who is very shameless. I asked if she\u2019d like to be in the shoes of anyone else. To my embarrassment she said she\u2019d like to be in mine. I didn\u2019t even ask why because I was unexpectedly embarrassed.

Even after seeing me from morning to night, and witnessing my bad moods and sorrows, she would nonetheless accept being me… I think, then, that I have nothing left but to want to be myself \u2013 which is already getting quite boring, by the way\u2026

The book is, so to speak, finished. God knows it\u2019s worthless, darling. I believe that in about two months I can call it quits. As it happens, I\u2019ll end it because I\u2019m sick of it. It was the work that made me suffer the most.  I\u2019ve been tinkering with it for three years, abandoning it and returning to it. And it\u2019s only been about three months since I finally found out what I was trying to say in it… This book has been copied, destroyed, resurrected, I don\u2019t know, a thousand times. One of these days, picking up one of the more recent copies (quite different from the current one) \u2013 I felt physically nauseous as I remembered how I suffered because of every part of it and how I saw that it was useless. I had to stop thinking about it for days \u2013 because this curious disgust from the pain persisted in me. Anyway, dear, the book is horrible. I haven\u2019t evolved at all, I haven\u2019t attained anything. I still have my head in the clouds, I remain vague and dreamy, dislocating in some way the meaning of life. May God forgive me. Three years \u2013 to arrive at this. I tinkered and retinkered with the book so much that I no longer understand its meaning. So much impotence makes me want to scream.  <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Throughout this 3-year period, my mal-adaptation has played a major role. It seems, darling, that I am getting used to it now; I have been happier and more resigned, and more able to control myself and smother useless dreams. But I can say that from this period a real repugnance of suffering has stayed with me, as one has repugnance of a wound that won\u2019t heal. I don\u2019t know what to do with the book, Tania. And I\u2019m asking you for advice. It\u2019s no use telling me I should set it aside and revise it later: it is rotten in my hands, and more and more I will distance myself from it. Although I\u2019m so attached to it that I\u2019m incapable of starting anything else. Of course, you\u2019ll ask what Maury says. Once Maury started to read it and did not like it (he, at first reading, didn\u2019t like the 1st<\/sup> or the 2nd<\/sup> book, for which he was right). Not only did he not like this one, he became so disinterested that he only read about 15 pages, and forgot to read the rest. He didn\u2019t even ask me for more. I understand very well. Of course, the week that followed that minor incident was very bad for me; I put the book away \u201cforever.\u201d But, with a constancy that even seems harmful, I went back to work on it again; I seem to be incorrigible. Maury was right: the book is no good. But what am I supposed to do? I don\u2019t know. Send it, after it is definitively copied, for you and Lucio to read? Tell me, please, darling. (If I don\u2019t ask Elisa to also read it, it\u2019s because she has so many scruples in a case like this, that it\u2019s not worth causing any problems for her.) Write to me, darling, tell me what you think.
Meanwhile, that young man, who is in Geneva, is completely neurasthenic. It seems he really wakes up at night to cry… Don\u2019t tell anyone, of course. It seems that he will indeed go to a health facility. In part, it must be because he was ill and this depressed him. But for the most part, I think that it comes from the uprootedness of this life abroad. Not everyone is strong enough to bear not having an environment of their own, or friends. More and more, I admire Dad and others who, like him, knew how to have a \u201cnew life;\u201d it takes a lot of courage to have a new life. In this career if you are completely out of touch with reality, you don\u2019t enter into any circle properly \u2013 and diplomatic circles are composed of shadows and shadows. It is indeed considered in bad taste to have personal tastes or talk about yourself or even talk about others. No one exactly gets along with a diplomat; with a diplomat, one dines. All of this \u2013 plus the comfort, the facilities, and the instability \u2013 makes them consider themselves apart from and above others. So one of them said, speaking of a young woman: \u201cshe did not marry well: she married just a doctor…\u201d And even he once complained to Maury\u2019s uncle that he worked too much and was burning out. Maury\u2019s uncle, who is a man embroiled in life, asked how many hours per day he worked. Answer: about 4 per day, and often less… The man burst out laughing! Because he himself works more than 8 hours a day, and has direct responsibility, has signatures, ship dispatches, and also money to lose. And he doesn\u2019t have time to have M.\u2019s horrible moral depression.

I think I\u2019ve said too much, dear. I hope you had the patience to read to the end\u2026

Ask Marcinha to write me a letter. She \u201cowes me\u201d a response… about Elisa\u2019s public job exam. How\u2019s William? Send news of him, alright? About health, work.

My dear sister, God bless you and give you much health and joy.

Clarice<\/p>\n","protected":false},"featured_media":6066,"parent":6511,"menu_order":21,"template":"","categories":[],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-6488","acervo","type-acervo","status-publish","has-post-thumbnail","hentry"],"yoast_head":"\n067417 - Clarice Lispector<\/title>\n<meta name=\"robots\" content=\"index, follow, max-snippet:-1, max-image-preview:large, max-video-preview:-1\" \/>\n<link rel=\"canonical\" href=\"https:\/\/site.claricelispector.ims.com.br\/acervo\/letters\/067417-2\/\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:locale\" content=\"en_US\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:type\" content=\"article\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:title\" content=\"067417 - Clarice Lispector\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:description\" content=\"Bern, October 22, 1947 My dear, The typewriter is being repaired, I have to write carefully by hand, which I hate. Darling, little flower, are you well then? Healthy? Are you undergoing any treatment? 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