betrayed myself
For I wasn’t. He had noticed two of my gestures, and what they symbolized. 1st) I had lit my own cigarette, but a woman waits with her cigarette until a man lights it 2nd) I myself moved the chair closer to the table, when I should have waited for him to do it for me. So I defended myself, I began to wake up, and I was already talking to [ILLEGIBLE] and trying