Itens

Day 16 – Friday
I lent 70 dollars to Alzira
Alzira lent me 40 of hers
Alzira owes me 30 dollars
—
Dia 17 Saturday (I have 14,000)
I owe Alzira:
3,536 (perfumes)
? 5,000 (dinner [Dinerzade])
? 2,000 (theater Sunday)
? 2,000 (theater Monday)
? 5,000 (dinner [ete])
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? 17,536

[Dinerzade] –
Read –
Latin America =
[drawings]

like that: I’ll make reservat. not on Monday, but Tuesday, because the Embassy in Paris might [probably] will invite me.
[bills]

6) I didn’t let anyone make a case out of me…
7) [ILLEGIBLE] – [ILLEGIBLE] of [ILLEGIBLE] didn’t say you were [neglect] – [ILLEGIBLE] – [never] you were [neglect]
8) He is my slave
9) One week – [dam]’s makes the reservationThen: every day, hours before – only [ILLEGIBLE] has to have reservations, so not to have to displace 2 other people. From that she changed, even to me, that was there – as a way of making know what she thinks and wants — that the only day we could go was Monday, but we would have to displace people — so better Tuesday I said. no, he said – he didn’t answer, didn’t like. And the thing became

1) 5 days – at the most
when I found out it wasn’t due to illness, it was travel I again asked– because otherwise it wouldn’t be possible to go. 
2) [Vania], in Washington, asked if the plans suited me. 
3) Flowers – I didn’t send any because I was there as her secretary. “But I’ll send chocolate to the child” I sent it [ILLEGIBLE] – – – – –
4) Drink in the room – do you want ice? No, you don’t want [denise] and I to get drunk?
5) In Paris, the bills she – someone is [tricking] [ILLEGIBLE] someone. Return her, pay me at night, you have to suck up the 4 cents.6) Return – saying she didn’t decide – saying to the man another week maybe I ask let me know telegraph child, why don’t you stay [more]? Well, until Wednesday, because I have a [ILLEGIBLE] on Thursday – didn’t ask me – never asking me if [ILLEGIBLE], never referring to the fact that to me and to everybody just 5 days, the maxim. be 3 days [ILLEGIBLE] 2 days in Paris.

To have a single body, surrounded by [rotation], it makes such a limited body. I feel anxiety, I’m afraid to be just one body. A little ball of mercury in the broken thermometer.  — My fear and anxiety is of being one body.

Protection
Thinking about having protection – Thoughts that occurred to me and caused me anguish: I want anybody to hold my hand — (Daddy, when I was in pain, that’s how you helped me to bear pain) — I don’t want to be a single body, I’m cut out from the rest of me — the rest of me is my [mother]? [at] is another body.

to defend myself, explaining that I couldn’t wait for someone to light a cigarette for me, I don’t know what other explanations.